"Sometimes, I wish I was a girl."
Not for the superficial aspect of fashion or the social acceptance of favoring the affection of men; just for the simple fact that I would be able to be rude because most would take it as "she's just PMS-ing."
Well, in a way I guess I am a girl. I my eyes I see a man with possibly recessive male attributes, but my peers have seen otherwise. I have always been "the feminine one" out of all my male relatives. I haven't been able to break this notion, but I guess I don't care so much anymore.....Except for the whole "coming out" aspect. Yes, to the "surprise" of everyone, I'm gay, which I see as a contradiction (the "I don't think he likes girls" gossip has always been heaved my way, yet they hypocritically believed it was just a phase?)
I mean, I may come off as a regular hetero-male (I don't act like the stereotypical "queen" or "Diva"), but I do like men, no doubt about that. I guess I'm just suffering from this complex that I'm supposed to like women (biologically, I'm built to, but psychologically I just don't), and that I'm letting the human race down. I've known this since the 8th grade, but looking back on life, I've know my entire life. I just suppressed the thoughts.
